unintelligent

3/16 - 3:32 AM

i cant imagine being smart. or intelligent. or good at anything.

i'm always mediocre. everything i do, i do "okay."

its an infuriating and frustrating feeling. why am i in the grey zone? why can i apparently go from awful to okay, but not okay to good? why am i stuck here?

its everything i do. i can't be good at anything. i'm stuck in this hell.

"hobbies are supposed to be fun" how can i have "fun" when all i produce are the same products like machine. there's nothing new about them and they are all. the. same.

what point is there to even try when i know that i'll never advance any higher? and whats the point of having hope when i've hit with so much proof that i'll forever be mediocre?