this is what i look like when i whine in here!!!
i came back from new york last week. it was a good trip. i saw a lot of pidgeons and very pretty scenery; especially at central park. i uploaded the photos to the photography page. but because of the trip, i ended up missing some my college classes and now i'm completely lost. oh well
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i've also picked up sewing and cooking as a hobby. they are both very fun! i've especially been enjoying sewing, it's very relaxing to me and reminds me of drawing patters in my notebooks at school. i was introduced to this when i tried repairing a broken headband of mine. it's really cute and it has cat ears so i didn't want to get a new one. i then decided it would be worth it to try and fix it myself. it was very easy! today, i spent some time learning more stitches. tommorow, i'll get to go to the craft store and pick up some fabric and stuffing so i can make more things!!
i've also picked up cooking. my parents have been prodding me to learn for a while now, but i found an easy recipe that i wanted to try. my first attempt went really well, but my second attempt went alright. today, i tried making fettecini alfredo, but i dont think i picked out a good recipe. i accidently made a bunch of it though, so i will have to eat it all.
05:55; it's weird looking back at old photos of my parents and going through their old data drives. it's almost like sonder, but on a more personal level. i often have a selfish way of thinking about them, as they are my parents, but when sifting through their photos and their files, i'm reminded that they are their own people. they didn't start exisiting when i was born. it's humbling.
today was fun!
first, i went to college to take my first exam. it went okay, i knew some of the questions and didn't know like two of them.
afterwards, i had lunch and went out with my mom to get new clothes for my trip. i bought a really cute white dress and another black one. i also got some bras and silver necklaces.
finally, i went out with my english friend group to a ramen place. the ramen was good, but the portion size was really big, so i didn't finish it. i did however try black tea, which was a lot better than i thought it would be, considering i'm not a very big fan of tea. it was really nice to hang out with more than one person, i didn't feel like i was left out too much. they are all much more intelligeint than me, but they don't constantly talk about academics, so it's a litter better for my ego that way. they all looked very beautiful and pretty.
before i left, my camera came and i am in love with it. it is a nikon coolpx 4600. it is so small and cute!!! it's actually perfect for travelling, as it uses batteries instead of needing to charge and i cannot stress how small it is!!
on saturday, i had my drivers exam. i passed! though it is not impressive, considering how easy the exam was. i have my appointment with the dmv on july 7th, then i'll be able to drive by myself! i've been brainstorming ideas on where to go, but it is overwhelming.
overall, today was good. i'm tired though, i don't go out this much. i'm excited for new york. i think i'll start working on my photography page.
hello. it's been a while.
i don't have anythign say. i didn't two months ago & i don't now.
i've been messing around with Astro & TailwindCSS. its helped a lot with learning css & javascript, as well as more advanced techniques in javascript.
other than that, i've been reflecting a lot; mainly on what i want to do in the future. i've decided on mechanical engineering for now, but i sway between that & electrical engineering. i love the both of them, but the latter is notoriously difficult. it's fascinating though, electricity & working with circuits. i even considered vet school.
i've narrowed down my list of colleges that i want to go to, most of them are >50% acceptance rate, as to not damage my ego too much. i've also gotten a letter of reccomendation. i'm going to attend a virtual admissions overview tonight for one of them. i'm also attending my local communtity college for high school credit. currently, i'm taking macroeconomics. i would havbe taken micro but there were no campuses close to me offering that class in person. i cannot do online learning. when that class is over, i have government next. then nothing.
i took the sat again last weekend, i studied with my tutor. i didn't eat anything that entire week. i have the act in july. all my scores need to be higher
i have my driving exam this saturday on the fourtheeth. it is with my local driving school, so all i have to do is parallel park & drive around in a neighborhood. the more difficult part will be patiently waiting for my DMV appointment in july to officially get the license.
i've just been in the same cycle as usual, being happy & motivated, dipping into sadness, being miserable & wailing, then slowly crawling back up. i want to be more creative & write more. its so frustrating being a woman.
on the 18th i'll be going to new york, i think i might get a new (HOPEFULLY CHEAP!!!!!) camera to take photos. i'm really excited. my childhood stuffed animal is from there, & i'd love to visit the store that she's from.
i think i'm going to get my nose pierced.
19:33; i forgot i had a webinar for one of my colleges. oops. luckily i made it in time. the college seems like a really good place, i'm very excited to go if i get accepted. it's far away from where i live, but it's a lot like my old home. i can't wait. although, the idea of being truly alone is daunting, but thrilling at the same time.