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01/29/26

10:53

i ran out of my favorite perfume! i'm wearing another one right now, but it's not the same......

the ice storm lasted longer than expected, so i had monday and tuesday off. during that time, i crocheted a bunch. i would have done it more, but when i made those cookies i accidentally burned myself right on the finger where i hold yarn, so it hurt when ever i put yarn on top. i ended up having to use a bandage to cover it. i also finished mirai nikki. i initally started it in the beginning of the month, got hooked, took a break, and finished it towards the end of the month. i actually really liked it, despite the genuinely insane amount of boob shots of middle schoolers that i had to power through. it has a really good plot and i loved the pacing of it, but i literally can't in good faith recommend it to any one else because of the sheer volume (and size!) of underage BOOBS. anyways, minene has got to be one of my favorite characters, right next to aru. i just love tough girls........i'll write a better review of whole show in my writings page eventually. i wanted to bake over the break but i just didnt....for some unknown reason (liar!!! its laziness!!!!).

01/23/26

11:13

i've started a new crochet pattern. this one is a more advanced level. and as frustrating as it is, it is very fun to work on.

01/22/26

14:47

where i live, we are expected to get a pretty nasty ice storm. apparently we will be getting 6 inches of ice! at first this didn't surprise me as i lived in a cold place for the majority of my life, so this sounded like a tuesday to me. but then i remembered i'm in the south where houses aren't built for this, and then i became worried. i'm not too concerned, though, it's not like i have to go anywhere over the weekend.

01/20/26

10:08

my hair has been falling out a lot. i'm increasingly becoming more and more tired. maybe only eating 1 meal a day has had some adverse effects on me.

01/12/26

10:36

yesterday was a really good day! my friend H came over to crochet together. i taught her how to make a star and a heart. we were able to talk and it was nice. she recently got into a relationship and—to the dismay of 12yo me—i love hearing about romance, so she was able to talk to me about it. i'm really happy she's found a such a sweet and good guy, she deserves nothing less than the best.

we also went to a mutual friend of ours uncles sushi place where i tried sushi for the first time. we ordered an all you can eat, so i tried a lot of new things. i had a eel and cucumber roll as well as a smoked salmon one. i really enjoyed them both! they had a super good sweet eel sauce topped on all the rolls, which was my favorite. i also tried some chicken tempura. i tried sashimi for the first time and hated it. it's something you need to get used to, but i don't think thats going to happen any time soon. at the end, we had tempura fried oreo's with chocolate sauce and whipped cream which was, as expected, absolutely delicious.

01/09/26

09:12

i'm really upset today.

01/08/26

13:35

been meaning to write something, but i haven't been able to formulate it properly. i guess i'll start with what i did over the break.

i mostly lied down, partly because of my sedentary nature, but also because i got my wisdom teeth removed. i wrote an entry about it last month. it didn't hurt for too long, thanks to the pain meds. though now i have holes in my gums, and i sometimes run over them with my tongue on accident and it grosses me out. i also managed to crochet some pieces. i also cooked some food for the first time in a while and baked. i also did some sewing again. my dad wanted me to repair his patka. i also removed the elastic from my old pair of joggers out of sheer boredom. i didn't knit, but i think i made up for that fact. i didn't see many people, but i had dinner and went shopping with a mutual friend of mine. it was nice to talk to her, i want to get closer to her but i'm not really sure how. overall, i think this break was a lot more productive than my last one.

i usually get a rush of ambition when the new year comes. like last year, when i was sure to change my whole life around. that didn't happen, obviously. i'm sure i've changed in way that i can't tell, but it doesn't really matter. if i can't notice it, it must be insignificant. if anything, i feel i've gained more problems and stress, when last year was meant to reduce that! i guess it's a part of aging.

this year, i don't know what i want. i've rewritten this 3 times already to try to convey what i want for this year but i genuinely don't know. i'm not as ambitious as i used to be. is that a bad thing or a good thing? on one had, i appear lazy and unmotivated to people, but on the other, i can avoid disappointment and unnecessary stress about any goals i might have had.

right now, i'm getting back into sewing. i'm going to try and make a small tote bag for myself. i've also started working on a web-shrine for luka. i've never made one before, so it's proving to be challenging, but also fun. i've also applied for 1 job. on the weekend, me and H are going to have a crochet date and we might also be cooking something together. i'm really looking forward to it!